and our bruises are comin’
I’ve never had to do anything like this, I’ve always been on the other end. So many things were said with an, “I hate hearing this, but —-“
With all of it aside, all of the bullshit, and the binaries, and the community - and just all of it… I know there is something.
I want to make everything O.K but I know in doing so I will create a new and longer-lasting impression. Honesty is cruelty, when what I feel isn’t in line with how you feel. If I knew six months ago that things were going to pan out the way that they have, it might have been different. But this is how it’s going to be, and this is how we’re going to deal with it. The only way I know how.
And I’ll admit that sometimes I dodge bullets so that I won’t have to say exactly what’s on my mind, to protect you and your heart. I know that this will only make things harder in the end but I am being stubborn and with you I can only feel right now, and not later.
In an ideal world, I suppose we could try this out. If I let my guard down, if I ignored the looming negative consequences.
I just can’t and won’t settle for anything second rate, and I’m sorry if I’m your cloud nine and you’re just my past time.
But I care. I always have. And I will keep on caring.
