maybe three days ago
“paranoia is just fear.”
“so - figure out what it is you’re scared of.”
but I’m scared of so many things. of getting lost, sometimes. being forgotten - not leaving an impression, always. someone I love leaving, finding out that it was all a lie. the main components of life, it seems. the main things you use to develop yourself and your character, frighten me the most. I want to apologize all the time, no one has ever put up with me - not for long enough for it to have made a difference. there is always a let down, and that is another thing I am afraid. being let down. again. I see similarities, I get distant. I need a constant.
I am just going to be sad for a while I think.
