we laugh
and we say
‘it’s just a phase.’
because that would make so many others
feel less.
they never realize it - when they say beautiful things.
he said - ‘you look in him -
not at him.’
‘I have to.’
I said. I said that, ‘I have to - this is not my speciality.’
my specialty is having specialties.
specifically those that are too difficult to trace
to tract down
to capture.
a defense mechanism, crafted to perfection.
I find it too easy, perhaps.
the grand illusion -
just as those were not the words he spoke,
I made sure to make them so —
so that they would dance.
the control.
you’re an extrovert, like cobalt blue.
you cannot be controlled.
