feeling sick always heightens something in me. my feeling of feeling emotionally stunted. I’m nervous/excited about starting therapy. I want help. I want to be better. something in me is not working properly and I need it to be fixed. I put all of my focus onto mini bullshits of problems, and turn them into this huge complications. I wonder if I were better if I’d ever let something seemingly insignificant effect me as deeply. I wonder if I were better, would I let myself feel worthy. I don’t even know what I’m saying. broken up thoughts.
