today I feel scared. sometimes I think you are being distant, and those are often on the days we spend apart. knowing that I get to fall asleep with you is never enough to comfort.
I keep getting angry. I just don’t understand why. I just now thought, that if you could so easily convince me that I was crazy, and that you were doing what you said you were - couldn’t you just as easily be convincing me of a future you have no intention of carrying out? I am worried that this is too much for you, that my mood swings - from happy, to sad, and angry - and wearing you down and discouraging you from you are supposed to be doing. But this is all part of your growth - you need to experience and feel this, you need to follow through and correct and problem that you created. This isn’t just for us.
